I thought this was really cool and wanted to share.

So when I graduated from High school, Pastor John and Jan both got me the same book, My Utmost for His Highest (the classic edition) by Oswald Chambers. (Do you think God was trying to tell me something when I got two copies of the same book?) So I started reading it and thought, ok, I really don't want to read this book it is too confusing. (Since it is the classic edition, it is the original version from like 1930 and was just hard to read even though I don't have problems reading.) So onto the bookshelf they both went to get covered in dust and mostly forgotten.

So now zoom ahead about two years to the present, or back a few weeks, however you want to look at it, when I was talking to my friend Gary. He was mentioning the stuff he was getting out of the book and how great it was. So I thought why not give it a second chance.
I started on March 12th. (the book is set up so you read a little devotion each day of the year) What I read has been really going through my head. Here is part of that days devotional:

“Abandonment is not for anything at all. We have got so commercialized that we only go to God for something from Him, and not for Himself. It is like saying, “No, Lord, I don't want Thee, I want myself; but I want myself clean and filled with the Holy Ghost; I want to be put in Thy showroom and be able to say-- ’This is what God has done for me.’” If we only give up something to God because we want more back, there is nothing of the Holy Spirit in our abandonment; it is miserable commercial self-interest. That we gain heaven, that we are delivered from sin, that we are made useful to God--these things never enter as considerations into real abandonment, which is a personal sovereign preference for Jesus Christ Himself.”

That's growing inside me...“It’s a good thing.” (that's what Martha Stewart always says; but yeah, it really is a good thing)